Frusration.....

Been a short bit since my last post but had some time to think.  Now I haven't done so well on the cleaning out the friends list thing, but slowly working through it.  Some people are harder to get rid of then others, just because I don't want to deal with the backlash that would come with the removal, even though face book doesn't represent real life.  I have been finding myself ignore more and more things on there, people and their comments etc, which is a huge achievement for me and just playing a few games. Nothing major but just to relax myself;  Criminal case,  backgammon, scrabble, and a game called odd socks which really is matching socks out of a dryer¦ something I hate doing  in person.    Anyways there has been this one thing that has been bothering me and I can't ignore it.  

Especially when one friend keeps posting this garbage up; she posts up things about how people treat other people and suck 

"From this point on I'm going to treat people exactly how they treat me. Some should be glad. Others should be scared". 

Now this bothers me especially coming from this person.    I mean really how she knows that perhaps people got to that point to her long ago and had decided to dish back to her the same treatment she has been handing out for YEARS.  I mean she is a tough love gal, and I do get that but really there is a time to soften things sometimes.   The last time we spoke she bit my head off, because I offered her help and honestly through the years she has always bit my head off.  She states she has more life experience then me; if you call doing drugs, drinking all the time, Partying and sleeping around etc life experience, I think I will skip those lessons.  I can't say she makes the best choices all the time; but I will never say my choices are better then anyone's.  Just because I do not like something doesn't make it the right choice.  Now  I have know this person a long time, and  through all those times she  doesn't exactly tell the truth when she tells stories;  and I just agree to go  not cause problems since I know her well enough and I know my saying anything would do just that cause issues. 

Now I have been pretty sick, and I did mention it to her, and I got she would be coming to see me etc

. well that never happened, went to a party instead.   She is upset because she thought my dog barked and nipped at her dog.  Which did not happen,   my dog was beside me, she had her back turned let her dog (although on a leash) run and her little dog snapped etc at mine.   I had tried to pull my back but she did bark back, thinking that dog was playing; why because that is how our little dogs do play.   

It is stuff like that; I took her out for dinner for my birthday; and through the meal she proceeded to point out my flaws and what I do wrong in life.   How I really shouldn't care about my parents feelings, and stuff about my mom hurting etc.  That may be her but I am a family person so yes my mom being upset at something going on in the family is an issue.  Or over all something going on in the family are a big deal and not no  big deal¦ not your problem as she stated 

She always talks about how much her family hates her etc, or her gram hated her, and all I can think no kidding with that attitude you give off. I can totally see why they hate you.  Stop acting like your so cool and better then everyone.      

Things got to the last straw, many promises made and non kept and I hate that; down right sick of it.   

So to her statement yes I got to that point, I am treating you how you been treating me for years.  Don't like it not my issue; all your work issues etc, your co workers hate you etc, are your own doing, stop giving the attitude and perhaps you would make friends of them. 

Now that little one was not the only one she posted but posted up one saying  

"nothing is nicer then having someone who appreciates you in the smallest things. Accepts you in times of hardships. Comforts you when you're in trouble.  Loves you no matter what and is simply happy having you in their life." 

 Now don't get me wrong I could say that about people, but around her I just can't.  She brings me down, makes me feel horrible about myself every time.  And I really can't say offers any comforts. The only thing you will ever get from her is tough love and really there is tough love and then there is what she dishes out and its really not healthily at all.  She talks about getting rid of the bad and karma and negativity, well her definition of karma is not correct, and she puts the negativity on herself, so it really comes down to how much a person can take.  And yet, I know she is one of those ones I can not delete from face book why because of the stupid 

So really in response to all those she posts, I am not scared,   you already treat me like crap,  I just have been spending my time living my life and ignoring you. Not much else I can do.   Just remind me to never make plans with her again;    I don't need the depression to set in.