Mid week thoughts

A mid week post wowie, what a roll I am on.  HA.  My goal for hitting the treadmill every day this week has been a weak attempt.  My arthritics is so bad right now, walking is killing me.  I go to bed in pain and I am getting up in pain.  I want it to lighten up but far still waiting on that.  I haven’t had an attack this long or this bad since I was heavier. I am worried that my arthritics is getting worse. The pain killers I am taking for it, which really do not help are killing my stomach and over all things are just not working

And yet amidst all of this  I was thinking of over all goals.  Final totals and physicals goals.   I want to get down to 145 as my final weight total.  Seems  like a lot when I am sitting at 206, but I think I can do it.  Another goal is I want to do a marathon,  I want to  do the OK one.  I heard someone talk about it  and want to try it, 

Well that is all for now

First Week review

One week check in and where do I stand on things.  Well proud to say down 2 pounds but honestly not feeling like that is a month if I want to be down 10 pounds by the end of April.  I managed to keep a couple of my goals. I did not buy one slurpee this week. Hurray, but some of the other stuff was hard when people would buy me a bag of chips here, or a chocolate bar, or any of that stuff.  It’s nice but how do you tell someone to stop. 

Another goal is the water aspect, now trying on that one; I just hate water so much but it’s still an in progress thing.    But I did manage to cut out no extra salt all week.  I have not added any to my food all week so rather proud of that.   Exercising everyday did not happen as well, but did it more often than last month. I did start taking my iron pills again, and although uncomfortable with my stomach I am pushing through.   In need to get back into this.  I need to start these goals for myself

But I think I am going to do mini goals:  Like by the end of April I want to be able to do 3.5 speeds on the treadmill again.  Along with that, by the end of May be doing an hour on the treadmill each day on days I am not working.  On days I am working 45 minutes.   This is something I am trying really hard to do.   A little challenge for just the week is to work out on the Tread mill every day this week.  That means for this to work, getting up early,  to work out, showering doing some stuff and laying down again  just to make sure I get enough rest to make it through the day.  I did sign up to donate blood again,  and to do that, one Iron has to be up high enough and that is happening on April 17; so fingers cross I succeed in raising up those levels

As for the writing goals; man have I failed that one; I have gotten nowhere, and it’s not looking good.  What am wrong with me was I just fooling myself that I could do any form of writing.  Going to with the goals I recently set, having not achieved any of those is still an ongoing thing. 

More Goals: Writing away

Here I am with more goals;  its been a rocky start to the personal goals but since its only day two, can I really say that?  Today's  blog is about my writing.   Lately I have been lacking in this department;  well down right sucking is the words I would actually use but trying to be positive about it. And let me tell you staying positive right now is not an easy task. 

With my writing, let's just say I have not finished anything I have started in nearly two years.  Every time I read something I wrote, the first thing thing I think is how crappy it is.  I can't seem to write anything or make it flow like I feel I use to be able too.  What makes it worse as well is the whole going weeks on end with out writing a thing.  This  lack of writing is not only affecting me emotionally and mentally  but helps me keep things bottled up inside until I blow.  This I can't have happen so   I need to set up some goals when it comes to my writing

1)  I want to write at least 2 pages of anything a day.  Doesn't matter what it is, just getting out my thoughts even

2) I want to be blogging once a week; even if its something totally stupid, like the smelly guy on the bus.

3) I want to get out a first draft and then go back and correct it;  stop fixing  the first three paragraphs 20 times.

4) Go back to keeping it  private;  that seemed to work for me before

Just a few short goals.  I just want a weekend to get away,  from everything and just write.  I was hoping to do that in May but I doubt that will be happening now.

April 1, 2013 - April fools Prank it's not!

I think my body thinks I am playing an April Fools Joke on them.  HA  Surprise.... Nope this is for real. Well first day off to a good start; got up at nearly the time I will be getting up for the rest of the week.  Got up did some household stuff and hit the treadmill. WOWIE out of shape.  Tuckered me out and I could not wait for the 30 minutes to end.  From there with a little "help" from the dogs  I did only 10 sit ups.  UGH use to be able to do 25.

Lately my joints are killing me all the time and I am out of breath; I can't even do the scripting  i normally do with out running out of breath.  Been awhile since that happened.  Nope no more.   Been thinking about it while doing the treadmill and  setting a few short term goals for me

1) Lose 10 pounds by the end of April
2) Get back into the water thing, use to drink a lot
3) Cut back on salt. yes  I do love salt and it is something I need to work on
4) Weigh in every sunday. ONLY sundays
5) Cut back on portion sizes, feel like I am eating too much lately
6) No more late night snacks
7)Clear out any snacks left in bedroom.
8) Start my Iron pills again
9)Some sort of exercise Daily - whether treadmill, or  sit ups,etc


This is the short term goals for now. Once I get these back into my routine,  will go from there and get more specific.