I don’t even know where to start this; really been thinking
about this, but no start. I’ve screwed
up; I’ve screwed up badly. In 2004 I made a promise to someone very important
to me and for the longest time I worked hard to achieve that promise. In 2011; I felt that I accomplished what I had
sought out to do. But really I hadn’t
really thought about maintaining it. Since that time I went downhill; that promise
I made hasn’t been kept; I am realizing that now.
Work… work sucks; back when I was managing the gas stations
I asked what I was doing with my life. I
want to be able to afford to do things; to move out on my own etc. That is why I went to school; sure school has
helped; I guess, but really with this job I haven’t used any of my
schooling. And when at one time there
was a thought to advance, now it seems according to them, all advancing jobs
are temps and I could be coming back downstairs, so really is it worth it? Is this really what I want to be doing? Sure I can afford to do stuff (except for the
massive amount of debt I have now… school plus except for debt). But I am stuck doing something that I could
have gotten the job doing without the degree.
I need to start looking at things; I see the people I went to school
with and how far they have gotten.
Perhaps its time to look at things again; start taking some side classes
really take this degree to the next step.
Money is a factor in there, and I need to work on that area too.
But it is more than that; the working on myself aspect went downhill
as well. I need to start setting some
goals again, to work on aspects. My weight has gone well up hill instead of
down. My writing sucks, and just over
all unhappy; with a lot of things. I am
not making the effort I use to make in a lot of things and its time to look
over things again. So here it goes;
things are going to change
(1)
Working on the money thing
2 (2)
MY weight:
No more slurpees unless someone else buys them for me. I will no longer be spending money on
them. This will also help the money
thing
3 (3)
Work issue: time to look into other classes and courses
just to keep advancing myself
4 (4)
Writing; I need to finish something. I can’t
seem to do that. Even this blog post is not what I wanted it
to be however; its all I seem to be able
to get out.
It is time to shape up, or ship out. And It is time to stop excuses and get back to that promise!
April first is going to be the new start... the start that gets me back on track...... HERE WE GO
On another note just learned that a model’s waste is 23
inches… yikes!
