A new week at work, and at the end of today there will only be 21 calender days left until I head to Vegas, got to say it can't come soon enough. As it is this week along I am pushing to get to Wednesday evening... why parents are out of town, whole house to myself. HURRAY!!!. Lots to do, but Thursday I am hoping to do very little . . . Not sure why that never works but here is to finger's crossed and bad night's sleep trying to share my bed with three dogs, lol. Other then that on early shift so the house should be peaceful, and enjoying the evenings upstairs.
Things have been bothering me lately, many things, that just keep buliding up, not sure if its due to the whole not really getting any writing in or anything so not way to relieve my stress. Let's start with one that has been bothering me off and on for months now. I am always to blame for everything; there is a glitch in something, or something did not go through, its my fault. Now I am ok taking the blame for things a lot of the time, but not all of the time, a girl needs a break once in awhile. And it doesn't matter who it is, they just keep putting it on me. If I did something wrong, or I do realize it is my own fault I have no problem admitting to it, or taking the blame, but I take it all the time for things that I had nothing to do with.
Another issue is opinions, myself like other people are entitled to their own opinion, now respect other people's opinions, I am open to hearing them, (although will tune out if rascist or preachy, but I tend to listen). But lately its everywhere, and they play the Race/sex/orientation/beliefs card. I understand all of these are apart of who you are and your values, and yes I respect your right to have your own opinion on it, but respect mine to have my own. Like in this recent election, a few things have been going on; I know a canadiate represents a party, however, a person is allowed to have their own personal views with out the Party being connected to it. One man who is a minister (his other job) is running, now in his religion it is against same sex marriage. Well his religion says that, but his own personal views say the opposite and yet people are saying do not vote for the party because of him.... Hello HE IS NOT THE WHOLE PARTY. He is allowed to have a personal opinion. Another issue is on a group I was apart of. I do accept other people's opinions, but when I have one, and other people pretty much disagree (which is fine) but then basically try and point out why I am wrong using their own personal opinions and then state someone else is correct because their opinions match isn't exactly right. With personal opinions no one is RIGHT OR WRONG, that is why its PERSONAL opinions, there are no right or wrong answers.
Another issue is taking ownership of things. Issues with our Cable company, and you call them and not getting anywhere, they wont take a blame or anything, they shrug it off. Take some responsiblity!
On a good note, today is my parents 35th Wedding Anniversary!. I hope to one day hit that too, but the way things are looking, lol getting to one year would be a bonus... would have to meet someone first. Oh well such is life
Monday, April 23, 2012
Friday, April 20, 2012
One day does make a difference
Well things are looking up a little. Found out today that my tax return (although not finalized) is a bit more then i thought it would be. Well over a thousand more then I thought it would be. That helps with paying my insurance for the year, getting the all season tires on my car and putting money away for my surgery, (YAHOO). All of that lifts some worries off of myself, so i don't so many worries. Need to restructure things but things just may be looking up, lol finally. Still on the late shift this week, today very very slow, with a lot of screaming customers that do call in. Over all not a bad night but an end to a decent week.
Thursday, April 19, 2012
Just need to get away
It is my late shift at work and I am hoping to use this time today to get in a blog post as well as perhaps do some writing. I miss doing the writing. Tired today, going from 7 am shifts to this 12:30 to 9 shifts is not easy, and next week I am back to 7 ams since I requested them. My parents are going away next week, at least the last part of the week, heading to Sask to see the rental houses. So from Wednesday I have the house to myself, a plus. I did switch a shift so I have a whole house to myself for a full day, YAHOO. I know that sounds strange but the peace of just me, feeling like my own space is a good one. I would love to be a lazy butt and lazy around but thats is just not me. Plan on doing a little bit of house work, going for a walk with the dog, start planning for my trip, what to bring, what I need to have done before I go, just a few things.
As for other things going on in my life, well this monday is my parents Ann, 35 years. Good for them, not to many people make it that far or even that close, especially not in my family. Will see if a "family" member calls them and wishes them good wishes, but to be honest I really doubt that will happen, of course unless this person doesn't realize there is a problem.
Another thing going on that is bothering me is people who make plans or commitments and yet either forget or decide if they do not mention them then they will go away. This one person has done it multiple times to me, and given signs its going to happen again with Heritiage days. I had made an event on facebook inviting a few people to go for the day, stating either Aug 5 or 6, depending on if when Julie comes we are going to Empty town first or heritage days depending on the schedule of my parents. that is on the event thing, but it looks like (going by what someone else posted up on her wall) that she may have plans for the aug 4, which sounds to be probably camping (it is usually what she does esp since it is a long weekend). I put on there a comment asking what she was doing and no reply, why because I am sure she believes if she does not answer then I will forget or not realize it.
Work is going well, a few issues, such as the new agents making some big mistakes, now i know they are new and i know my class made some mistakes however this are major mistakes. The other classes have only made slight ones and not ones that would cost the company a ton of money. Three days in a row all I am doing is fixing these problems, I am seriously wanting to slam my head into a wall. There is a little less garbage going around for the past couple of days, so that is a plus. In other words I haven't gotten in trouble for a couple of days. I wont lie I am pushing for the weekend, feel like I just need to get away.
On a good note, Vegas in 26 days. At this time next month I will have seen ELVIS!!!
As for other things going on in my life, well this monday is my parents Ann, 35 years. Good for them, not to many people make it that far or even that close, especially not in my family. Will see if a "family" member calls them and wishes them good wishes, but to be honest I really doubt that will happen, of course unless this person doesn't realize there is a problem.
Another thing going on that is bothering me is people who make plans or commitments and yet either forget or decide if they do not mention them then they will go away. This one person has done it multiple times to me, and given signs its going to happen again with Heritiage days. I had made an event on facebook inviting a few people to go for the day, stating either Aug 5 or 6, depending on if when Julie comes we are going to Empty town first or heritage days depending on the schedule of my parents. that is on the event thing, but it looks like (going by what someone else posted up on her wall) that she may have plans for the aug 4, which sounds to be probably camping (it is usually what she does esp since it is a long weekend). I put on there a comment asking what she was doing and no reply, why because I am sure she believes if she does not answer then I will forget or not realize it.
Work is going well, a few issues, such as the new agents making some big mistakes, now i know they are new and i know my class made some mistakes however this are major mistakes. The other classes have only made slight ones and not ones that would cost the company a ton of money. Three days in a row all I am doing is fixing these problems, I am seriously wanting to slam my head into a wall. There is a little less garbage going around for the past couple of days, so that is a plus. In other words I haven't gotten in trouble for a couple of days. I wont lie I am pushing for the weekend, feel like I just need to get away.
On a good note, Vegas in 26 days. At this time next month I will have seen ELVIS!!!
Tuesday, April 10, 2012
Each step
Well a new month. April already, it is shockingly going quickly. Upon looking at the calendar totally shocked at seeing that it is April 10th already and that I will be in Vegas in 35 days. I can hardly wait. Much needed and excited, I need start putting things together, figuring out what to bring and what not to bring.
This past weekend was kind of busy, finally got to put stuff away in the basement, put things out of the containers but really didn't do a heck of a lot. Will have to move out to offically move.
I started to do some thinking, there are a few places I would like to go in the future at least close places. Go back to Seattle to visit Julie (would have loved to go this year, to see the 50 year of world fair). See the Oregan coast with Julie, and to go to Graceland. Those are future near goals. I do want to see other places but they are further future. I want to move out get my own place before I go to the land down under or Russia etc etc. The little goals.
Things this year seem to be going alright, dad is starting to do a bit better. My mom is finally going to get the surgery on her knee like she so badly needs. And Even I am going in for surgery in Sept to remove the extra skin i have from my weight loss. YEAH. So excited for the thigns happening this year, a bit nervous too but its one step at a time. Learn the hard way of not grouping things for the year, each thing that happens is a new event, it does not make the year bad, just its one step in either direction as the year goes. I need to start looking them as the little steps and work from there
This past weekend was kind of busy, finally got to put stuff away in the basement, put things out of the containers but really didn't do a heck of a lot. Will have to move out to offically move.
I started to do some thinking, there are a few places I would like to go in the future at least close places. Go back to Seattle to visit Julie (would have loved to go this year, to see the 50 year of world fair). See the Oregan coast with Julie, and to go to Graceland. Those are future near goals. I do want to see other places but they are further future. I want to move out get my own place before I go to the land down under or Russia etc etc. The little goals.
Things this year seem to be going alright, dad is starting to do a bit better. My mom is finally going to get the surgery on her knee like she so badly needs. And Even I am going in for surgery in Sept to remove the extra skin i have from my weight loss. YEAH. So excited for the thigns happening this year, a bit nervous too but its one step at a time. Learn the hard way of not grouping things for the year, each thing that happens is a new event, it does not make the year bad, just its one step in either direction as the year goes. I need to start looking them as the little steps and work from there
Friday, March 30, 2012
A little catch up
Today I am hoping to have a good day, its not looking to bad. The work crews started on fixing the basement problem yesterday. YEAH. So that feels great that something is starting to get done. I am going to donate blood again today, looking forward to it. Not just because its 2 hours off the phone but also because I was told my blood type is kind of rare so people do need it. So that is another plus in my books. One thing I haven't done in awhile is write; to which I really need to do. Its like I crave it and probably one of the reasons I have been moody for the past bit.
My Vegas trip is nearly here, after today its 45 days or a month and a half. Its hard to believe its nearly April. This year has already gone by so quickly. Life is interesting, the same drama from the same people, but hey, I guess that is apart of life. Some people can't help needing that attention or craving it. Some people just can't seem to avoid it. I personally try to keep things to myself.
One thing I forgot to mention is about two weeks ago we finally got the results of my uncles autopsy. After years of drug abuse he finally got clean. He was working at the Hope Mission, living near to it, getting his life together. Well I guess the years of drugs took a toll on him. He was pretty sick, Pneumonia I guess, which complications from his diabetics and his heart (he had gained a lot of weight after stopping the drugs). All played a part in his death, they also found codeine in his system and morphine. Now the Morphine makes no sense, an ex drug addict with that in his system is not a good thing. Makes me wonder how he got that, my mom and aunt think it may have been in a pain killer. Most doctors wont give morphine to an ex druggie. The codeine may have been in cough medicine, which also may explain the alcohol they found in his system as well. The Morphine is what is out of place, they need to and choose to believe he died clean, I do have my doubts, but I will let them have what they need. Still have not told my other sibling the results and you know what, that does not bother me. With his attitude etc, and with what is going on with him, my parents aren't calling him nor will I. I am happy he is not in my life, in a way I finally feel at peace, finally. Some things I can not change, some things I wish I could but they make me who I am today.
My Vegas trip is nearly here, after today its 45 days or a month and a half. Its hard to believe its nearly April. This year has already gone by so quickly. Life is interesting, the same drama from the same people, but hey, I guess that is apart of life. Some people can't help needing that attention or craving it. Some people just can't seem to avoid it. I personally try to keep things to myself.
One thing I forgot to mention is about two weeks ago we finally got the results of my uncles autopsy. After years of drug abuse he finally got clean. He was working at the Hope Mission, living near to it, getting his life together. Well I guess the years of drugs took a toll on him. He was pretty sick, Pneumonia I guess, which complications from his diabetics and his heart (he had gained a lot of weight after stopping the drugs). All played a part in his death, they also found codeine in his system and morphine. Now the Morphine makes no sense, an ex drug addict with that in his system is not a good thing. Makes me wonder how he got that, my mom and aunt think it may have been in a pain killer. Most doctors wont give morphine to an ex druggie. The codeine may have been in cough medicine, which also may explain the alcohol they found in his system as well. The Morphine is what is out of place, they need to and choose to believe he died clean, I do have my doubts, but I will let them have what they need. Still have not told my other sibling the results and you know what, that does not bother me. With his attitude etc, and with what is going on with him, my parents aren't calling him nor will I. I am happy he is not in my life, in a way I finally feel at peace, finally. Some things I can not change, some things I wish I could but they make me who I am today.
Thursday, March 29, 2012
C-C-C-CHANGES
So much going on and in a way nothing at all. Things take time, and some things are coming up or could be coming up but taking their sweet little time to get here. One thing is that our basement is finally going to be fixed!!! YAHOO. That means that this summer when it rains, no more leaks. I can finally put the couch down of my Tupperware containers that are holding books and other things from the basement living room. YAHOO again. I can make it livable and functional again. I can perhaps have this feeling of overwhelming clutter taking away once things get organized again. They are starting on the leak in the laundry room. This leak has been there for a long time, started off as a small leak years ago, that well when it did leak would go right to the drain anyways so honestly not really a big big deal. However; this past year this little leak turned into a huge leak. Add the fact that the cold room, (just off of the basement living room) decided it was its turn to leak this year. Two massive leaks, I lost a lot of stuff, got rid of a lot of stuff and for the most part put everything up on Tupperware containers.
That is the first big thing, second, Mom is finally getting the surgery on her knee. YAHOO again. Nearly three years it took to get in to see the specialist and now finally they told her they would do it in June or July. That is great news!. Dad seems to be doing a bit better, although moody as ever. Nothing new there, but this is just as bad as it once was. Can't talk to him, he is a grumpy and short with people. I wanted to discuss something with him but honestly I think I am just going to shrug it off as its not going to happen.
I got in to see Dr. Toy, he is the one who is going to or may be doing my surgery for the extra skin removal. I have two choices, and after doing the pros and cons of it, I want to go with one of the options, the main issue is the cost. Now I have many ways to look at covering for it; I do have some insurance provided by my work (my flex dollars). The whole thing should cost about 6000 dollars plus tax. Now that isn't horrible, I can carry over it on my flex dollars for two years. It's going to make things tight for a little bit but waiting on tax return to see if management, I mean due to having cashed in my rrsps and that want to make sure I don't owe and can pay my insurance this year. So basically a waiting game.
I need to see what I can do, and save up for a few things. Some plans would need to be put on hold but that is part of life right?
I have lately been thinking about the little things that drive me crazy, or people who rub me the wrong way. I made the decision for those people who just really get on my nerves to let it pounce off of me. I just don't care and I don't care. It sounds sad to say but these people are digging their own "graves" so to speak. If they want to go and get an IPHONE and then complain about not having any money to move because they hate where they live. Not my problem, that 200 to 300 dollars you spent on that phone could have gone towards that move you want. Let alone hey let's make enemies out of the people who do drive and could move you. Good luck with trying to get that now.
I realized if I have the surgery in Sept (17) if things go as planned . . . then I need to work on losing more weight to make it even more beneficial. Make the surgery people tell me is a rather tough one really fully worth it all. That and needing to save means I need to sit down, take a look at everything and figure out where to cut back and what to work with. I don't always buy Timmy's but do I really need to stop that morning for one? No, that is what three dollars I could have saved instead of getting the french vanilla or ICE Cap. That is the first step in the line of getting on track. I also started looking for other ways to save money. For example, I do chores at home to lower my rent. I started to more chores to help out with that. Anyways to save money. I am not looking to be cheap but pull my expenses and seeing where I stand. Also going to Vegas but going to watch my spending. Nothing foolish. The changes have started
That is the first big thing, second, Mom is finally getting the surgery on her knee. YAHOO again. Nearly three years it took to get in to see the specialist and now finally they told her they would do it in June or July. That is great news!. Dad seems to be doing a bit better, although moody as ever. Nothing new there, but this is just as bad as it once was. Can't talk to him, he is a grumpy and short with people. I wanted to discuss something with him but honestly I think I am just going to shrug it off as its not going to happen.
I got in to see Dr. Toy, he is the one who is going to or may be doing my surgery for the extra skin removal. I have two choices, and after doing the pros and cons of it, I want to go with one of the options, the main issue is the cost. Now I have many ways to look at covering for it; I do have some insurance provided by my work (my flex dollars). The whole thing should cost about 6000 dollars plus tax. Now that isn't horrible, I can carry over it on my flex dollars for two years. It's going to make things tight for a little bit but waiting on tax return to see if management, I mean due to having cashed in my rrsps and that want to make sure I don't owe and can pay my insurance this year. So basically a waiting game.
I need to see what I can do, and save up for a few things. Some plans would need to be put on hold but that is part of life right?
I have lately been thinking about the little things that drive me crazy, or people who rub me the wrong way. I made the decision for those people who just really get on my nerves to let it pounce off of me. I just don't care and I don't care. It sounds sad to say but these people are digging their own "graves" so to speak. If they want to go and get an IPHONE and then complain about not having any money to move because they hate where they live. Not my problem, that 200 to 300 dollars you spent on that phone could have gone towards that move you want. Let alone hey let's make enemies out of the people who do drive and could move you. Good luck with trying to get that now.
I realized if I have the surgery in Sept (17) if things go as planned . . . then I need to work on losing more weight to make it even more beneficial. Make the surgery people tell me is a rather tough one really fully worth it all. That and needing to save means I need to sit down, take a look at everything and figure out where to cut back and what to work with. I don't always buy Timmy's but do I really need to stop that morning for one? No, that is what three dollars I could have saved instead of getting the french vanilla or ICE Cap. That is the first step in the line of getting on track. I also started looking for other ways to save money. For example, I do chores at home to lower my rent. I started to more chores to help out with that. Anyways to save money. I am not looking to be cheap but pull my expenses and seeing where I stand. Also going to Vegas but going to watch my spending. Nothing foolish. The changes have started
Monday, March 12, 2012
Hang on HERE WE GOOOOOOO!!!!
WOW, shaping up and shipping out. Well maybe not so much of the shipping out, but getting myself back on track for the shaping up portion. With the snow clearing getting back into the walking game. Took Jinger the other day and wow felt the out of shape, the little walk and by the time I got home my legs were sore! What if I had done the long walk? Not sure I would have made it. Along with the soreness I have noticed things been too tight again. My pants etc, so gotta get back into the swing of things, shake off the winter and get back into action.
Work is well going as well as to be excepted all the tension and stuff happening seems to have settled down for now, although my supervisor is away for nearly a month, and the other supervisors are taking over, including the one I DREAD. UGH. I am tough I can get through it.
Things have been going relatively smoothly, some ups and downs but just the basic of life for the most part. I am learning as of recently that people do really come and go, although I would prefer a few more of them to go, but I wont make the first step. If they feel I do not fit in their lives, I understand that, but I wont be the one to take the first step in pushing out.
Looking forward to having tomorrow off, plan on going for a few walks tomorrow with Jinger, wishing things weren't so went that I could take her through the Ravine, however, its just a little to wet, and muddy for that have to stay in the neighbourhood for now. I am thinking of adding a few things to my exercise routine. Some situps and perhaps push up, gotta work on the belly area, and legs. Strength and tone my arms is also another area I am looking to improve upon. I am getting into the swing of things and I am raring to go! So Hang on peeps HEEERREEEE WEEE GO!
Work is well going as well as to be excepted all the tension and stuff happening seems to have settled down for now, although my supervisor is away for nearly a month, and the other supervisors are taking over, including the one I DREAD. UGH. I am tough I can get through it.
Things have been going relatively smoothly, some ups and downs but just the basic of life for the most part. I am learning as of recently that people do really come and go, although I would prefer a few more of them to go, but I wont make the first step. If they feel I do not fit in their lives, I understand that, but I wont be the one to take the first step in pushing out.
Looking forward to having tomorrow off, plan on going for a few walks tomorrow with Jinger, wishing things weren't so went that I could take her through the Ravine, however, its just a little to wet, and muddy for that have to stay in the neighbourhood for now. I am thinking of adding a few things to my exercise routine. Some situps and perhaps push up, gotta work on the belly area, and legs. Strength and tone my arms is also another area I am looking to improve upon. I am getting into the swing of things and I am raring to go! So Hang on peeps HEEERREEEE WEEE GO!
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