Blog Challenge and 100 days update

So I have decided to do the 30 day blog challenge, but at the same time I am going to keep updating on my 100 day challenge So far today on the 100 days alraedy messed up wtih having a small slurpee that Jese brought me, its 8 am and I am already having a rotten day. I really do need good today. And I can say that I am moodier then Hell. I don't even want to be near me. I did a weigh in last night and I am starting at 226 pounds.. first goal for end of the month is to be done the 6 pounds. I need to get myself on track. Right now so tired though, went to bed but still woke up so tired. Still going to do the stairs and have asked my dad to help me create a spread sheet so I can record it and my progress. When I hit to being able to do that up and down 7 times in 10 minutes I will be adding another floor onto my mix. That's the update for now... will do my first blog challenge post shortly

The restart.... LET"S GET READY TO RUMBLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am restarting my 100 day challenge; and I know I keep saying this but I have high hopes for myself this time. I am setting little things, making plans but it is time to make these plans actions. I have problem areas I need to work on, thighs, hips, and my ass, along with my arms need toning. And I have been trying to figure out a plan to do so.

   Now Christa at my work who looks to be in fantastic shape. She on her breaks takes the stairs. I thought why not, it seems to work great for her. So it started yesterday, taking the stairs on my breaks. I went from the 15th floor to the 19th floor, two sets of stairs per floor. The first break I made the trip three times, the second trip I made it four times!.

 Went home that night and hit the treadmill for half an hour, so a bit sore today. Not sure I will do as well on the stairs today but going to try and not giving up. I hate the phrase no pain no gain, but right now its on my mind since my body is sore. I spent money this weekend I should not have spent, but picked up a bathingsuit; mainly because I knew I wouldn't find one in my size again when I go looking for it, and I want to get into aquasize or something, I use to love swiming.

  So I talked to Claudia someone who I use to go swiming with all the time as kids, since I was sure I remember her saying something about going to do that. Turns out I was right, she is going to look into times and get back to me, and we can go together. I especially want the first couple of times to go with someone to get use to it before I start going on my own. I need and want to get in shape, heck I remember how much I liked it when i was 55 pounds lighter then I was now, only a short bit again.

My goal right now is to get back to the 170. I am not going to waste what I was given the chance to achieve and right now that is exactly what I am doing. I need to start doing better, and eatting right. So I am starting the 100 day thing again. This time I will rock it. I need to start training too, I want to do the breast cancer walk in OCT, and I want to work the 5km. My first goal is to be down 5 pounds by the end of feb.

  So starting today Feb 11, 2014 my 100 days starts! May 21, 2014 is my 100th day.

1)Do stairs at work two a day - record on excel spread sheet
2)Record all eatting
3)Hit treadmill daily. If not doing stairs on that particular day then treadmill for an hour and leg exercises)
  4)Three times a week need to do arm exercises
5)No eating after 8pm
6)Cut down on portion sizes
7)blog more often to report my progress,  this should keep me in line

Disappointed in myself

I keep screwing up, everything I worked for I keep messing up. I am back tracking so badly and I am not sure how to fix it. I have gained back a lot of weight that I need to remove it. I need to get back to what I was at Rhea's wedding and that is going to happen. I screwed up on my 100 days and I am going to restart it. I will succeed. I have made goals before and been able to keep them, why am I having such a hard time now? My personal goal is to be down 26 pounds by May 18. I want to be be below 200 again; the amount I swore I would never be at again. I have to change some habits I have picked up.

100 days to a new me

So I have been following online a website called 100days.com. People change their lives in 100 days, usually through weight loss but I want to do it with all aspects of my life. And I mean all aspects. I have things to get on track. My financial situation is not good right now, or is my weight and health. Even just my mental mind frame; I am finding myself to me not as sympatric as I use to be and having a hard time showing empathy and I am starting to question myself. I will be completed this by May 2. So I sent my goals, for the next 100 days, 1) I will not be spending money that isn’t budgeted (with the exception of taking a taxi to my treatment this Friday but I figured would stop and get a booster juice to try and give myself something to eat beforehand that would have the nutrients etc that I need especially since I never feel like eating after the treatments 2) I will be hitting the treadmill every day. The Three weeks will be for a half an hour, after that for the rest of the time an hour. 3) For the first two weeks doing 25 sit ups, 25 leg lifts, 25 lunges, 25 squats, 25 vertical lifts. Two weeks after that, 35 of each. After the first month 50 of each 4) I will finish writing my Nano story 5) Arm lifts 6) I want to get Sear card at least half paid off 7) Want to get enough off of visa to book holiday for May and then restart to clear off card again 8) Start eatting better, This is just the start, I need to start to organize myself, clean my self out really and get my life on track.

New year, same old same old

Wowie where are things going; stressed doesn’t begin to cover it right now. Julie, Jess and I are doing a small thing right now about weight loss.. I am working out, I am doing a good job of eating right and I gained weight!. My new expensive winter jacket is tight on my big hips and rear. I work on those areas but nothing is helping. Let alone worried about finances right now. I have to pay for the hotel and rafting for May, and I have to book it soon, but worried since I was stupid and lowered the limits on my credit cards, not thinking about it so I have no give room. And it doesn’t help that I spent a ton of money at the stupid dentist!. Yes my insurance covered a great deal of it, but still cost more than I thought. I know, I have no one to blame but myself. As for my writing, well I did finish nano so proud of that, but really didn’t finish the story so did I really finish nano? And the worst thing is I know what I need to say, or want to say next to work to the end, but am I doing it? Nope. Writing would probably relax me. Other things have been stressing me out; I start working towards perhaps going on a date with someone and what happens, they just stop talking to me. I wonder why I even bother? Seriously, not that anyone would be really interested any more, since I can’t see. I just feeling over whelmed and frustrated.

Frusration

Can frustration really get to a person, pretty sure it can, when will I learn to keep my mouth shut and not speak to anyone at work. Since speaking to anyone, has them treat me poorly. I asked if a coworker experienced the same thing I did this morning with the snow workers putting down dirt on unplowed roads. She goes I am coming from Legal (an area out of town). As if that said it all, first off you choose to live out there, second, not my problem. She goes its north of here, and I said so like fort sask or Leduc or Gunn area, since I am not good with those directions. She goes North Leduc is south; I looked at her and went, I am not good with that type of directions. Not everyone is, I am a land mark type of person. Hell the area I grew up in use to be known as the south side until it grew and they have the new south side where South commons is. My coworkers have made it very clear where I stand with them. Like the other day they were all talking about an Elvis movie, and they couldn’t remember the name of it. One person stated well ask Treena, but did they no, they went to everyone else and didn’t ask me, didn’t include me in the conversation or anything. Hell they act like it’s a pain when the whole group is talking and I join the conversation and everything I say is a hardship. I am sick of it, even my supervisor gives me that impression. Nothing I say to anyone seems important enough so I wonder why I bother to talk at all. People do not remember what I say; they show no interest in what I am saying so why bother speaking at all. Will have to do a facebook clean up from my work co workers. Enough is enough

ASHAMED!

I will never understand people any more; and I have never been so disgusted about anything in my life as I am about this. There were pictures showing a Halloween party and one of those pictures has a person dressed as a drag Hitler…. In this picture two people are doing the Nazi salute… I mean really when did this become an acceptable thing? When did it become something we can joke about? I did report it but the site Admins think its ok, it’s not a hate symbol> HELLO it’s the KING of hate symbols. What is wrong with people to day and especially the youth that they would even begin to think that this sort of thing is acceptable! Is it because they never lived through such horrors? Well neither did I but I know it’s not appropriate at all. Don’t get me wrong Hitler did some good for people, but his crimes were not something to celebrate; and should not be used in that matter. Maybe it’s because these people never really finished school or focused on what they were learning. Not paying attention in social class to know Hitler was no joke. What he did to those people was no joke… If a celebrity did what these people did in those photos there would be a huge public outcry… so why does this person think its ok? And why did other people find it a joke. I mean really people come on. Hitler was no joke. I am totally ashamed to say the one person in the photo was family… (Although this person was not dressed up as that) the idea was still that they found it acceptable. I am really scared for the future of our society